Playing with the mind

It's funny how things play with your mind. What seems like the obvious is not really how it goes. What am I talking about? lol

take this weight for an example. I weighed in Thursday with the trainer at 178.8. We had already did one work out and I started changing my diet the day before. Up to 1400 calories a day from the 1000-1200 I was used to. Today I get on the scale (mainly because those that know me know I am scale obsesive) and what did it say. 180! 180 folks. Now my brain is screaming what the HELL is that all about! 2 work outs. Eating good and healthy. I hurt all over my body and for what. to gain 2 lbs. I am not happy about that.

But the reality is it's okay. Every one tells me it is perfectly fine and that you can gain first before you lose. I'm building muscle...muscle weighs more than fat...and once the muscle is doing good then well....it starts working on that fat. i've been told it will take several weeks if not a month before I notice anything on the scale. That I will notice it all in my clothes. Well if we are being honest here then I want tell you that I had on my NEW jeans today that fit just fine and when I bent over the damn things ripped in the front. Yep....that really helped the whole 180 thing today! A scale that doesn't like me and my new jeans ripping. Yep. I'm trying REALLY hard to get that brain of mine to understand it's okay. Wish I felt more confident about it all. But with one week done....I'm not so much feeling all that confident.

Another hurdle for me if you haven't noticed already is me liking myself and not being so blasted hard on myself. But that has been something I have done most of my life so it will take longer than a week or 8 weeks to fix. But I'm trying. I promise I am.

On the scrapping home front I actually scrapped two pages this weekend. That felt good. And I am actually pretty happy with them which has not been something I have done lately. Hope you like them :)

AND....only 3.5 more days and my daughter gets on an airplane headed to NYC. They leave at 4 am in the morning Thursday. I am getting pretty stressed, nervous, sad....anxious. Maybe I need to make a stress journal to go along with my weight journal and art journal :)

Ouch

Can I just say OUCH. I am STILL hurting from Thursday's workout. My tendoins along my shin bones. My thiegh muscles. My arms. I couldn't roll over last night with out something hurting...lol! I guess what they say is true no pain no gain.

I went today and bought some new tennis shoes. I think the ones I had just wasn't supportive enough. Also bought a bathing suit...gross...so I could start doing water areobics.

I'm a little anxious about this next Tuesday workout. I sure hope the muscles are feeling better by then and that she is not so intense on us this time around.

I think I am going to start on a weight journaling. To log down this whole experience and how I do. Hopefully this will help me realize the results and stick with it after this 8 weeks is over.

Biggest Loser day two

okay here is where the support comes in cause I don't think I am going to make it. She killed us today. In one hour we ran, did sprints, step up workout, sitsups, pushups, weights and band workouts. I hurt from my head to my toes. I'm exhausted and just want to go to sleep. I know this is for the good but goodness gracious. They are not showing mercy that is for sure. We did our weigh in today. I'm a lovely 178.8. That is with shoes on. We will weigh every Thursday. Next week we have our first team challenge too.

The shower is calling me and then I might just pass out on the couch for a few hours.

Evaulation

today was my health evaluation and my meeting with the nutrionist. Very eye opening. My BMI is 33 :( my blood pressure was 147/95. NOT good. But I think it was more from stress and nervousness. I came home and it was 111/86. Much better. Aerobic fitness was great and bicep strength was pretty good too but back flexibility. Yeah that was almost none but with this back what do you expect...lol!

The nutritionist was great. She gave me a food menu to follow along with going over the food groups and portion sizes. She bumped my calorie intake from 1200 to 1400/1500. I was like WHAT??? I can't eat 1200 as it is. So we will see how this goes. She firmly believes I don't eat enough. I know Rachel :) You've told me that for a while and I promise I will do better.

Tomorrow is Day 2. I still pretty worn out from yesterday and really sore. My back is what hurts the most but hoping after another good nights sleep we will be ready to go tomorrow. OH and I found out our instructor is the boot camp instructor. oh man are we in trouble!

on the scrapping homefront...yeah it sucks. I have not felt like scrapping in forever. I hate it. I don't like anything I make. I don't like any of my pictures. None of the paper. Nothing. No ideas. I just can't do it. I don't know what the problem is. Maybe I got away from it for to long. It really bothers me cause I want to be able to scrap and have fun. I just need to find some challenges and try to do what I can I guess. We will see what happens

Biggest Loser Day 1

Today was our first work out. I was very nervous and didn't know what to expect because we had heard horror stories about the morning class. But...I got there....met the other 9 team members and we worked out for an intense hour. That trainer didn't let up one bit. From 12:30-1:30 she had us running, stepping, throwing 4 lb weight balls, stretching and goodness knows what else. I thought I was going to pass out. BUT I did it. I finished the class. My back is pretty sore but I am going to suck it up and get ready for Day 2 on Thursday.

Tomorrow I will go have my health evaluation done. Body fat index and all that stuff that I really don't want to know about...lol. Then Thursday is Day 2. We have our first Team Challenge next Friday. Should be interesting.

The Biggest Loser

Well I did it. I signed up to be on the Biggest Loser at the Health Place at the gym near work. At first I was really nervous but now I am excited. At 175 and only 5'1 I really need to do something and now. But believe me it is not from lack of trying. I eat good, I follow the eating plan at Jenny Craig, I this and I that but it just doesn't work. I'm hoping this is what I need...that this is the starting point of a new me. I need it. I am so not happy with how I look and that reflects on how I feel and I am always grouchy. And not to mention my BP is not good and I haven't been to the heart dr in 2 years because I don't want to here him complain about me being over weight.

We start Tuesday. check back to see how we are doing. This will be my weight diary :)

Tally Challenges

we had some GREAT challenges this last weekend. One of the biggest challenges at least for me was this one. I was challenged to use every letter a-z on a layout. so I decided to paint the paper, use stickers, paint over them and create a mask with the stickers. I wasn't sure how it would turn out but it was kinda fun. What do you think?

I showed it to my son and he liked it but said "Mom....can we retake the picture cause that shirt I am wearing is gross"...lol!

A big thank you to Minda for making this awesome blog header for me. I am soooooo blah when it comes to doing things digital. I LOVE IT Minda!

Happy Birthday Tally

Today Tally Scrapper is 1!!! We are having a huge Tally Crop if you would like to join us. Lots of fun games, chats...and lots of layouts being made. AND a DT search!!! So hop on over to Tally!

Here are a few pages I made for today

Weekend going-ons

Well my racer didn't win but a top 5 is okay with me. At least Gordon is only 20 points out of the chase standings. Go GORDON.

Here are a few layouts I did this weekend. Hope you like them.

Been a little down

Been a little down this week. Not sure why. I bet the weather has some to do with it. Today was 66 and guess what tonight will be...snow???!!! can you believe that. Crazy huh. We have had severe storms every week for the last 3 weeks. It's about to drive me over the deep end. I know we need the rain. We are in a serious drought but still for goodness sake could the weather straighten out a bit please.

I'm feeling the heaviest I have been in a long time. I think that has brought me down a lot too. The kids grades are sucking. I am about a week away from taking the prom away from my daughter because of her grades and that is breaking my heart! Shawns are just pittiful.

I guess I just need the summer to get here. some away from work time. Some kids out of school time. Some beautiful outside weather/camping time. I need something that is for sure.

Hope all is well with you...big hugs

I had to ground myself

Yep...sure did. I grounded myself from the computer. I have been so buried in this genealogy stuff that I have been neglecting a lot of things. I haven't scrapped. My bathroom was in need of attention...just to much around here that I needed to do. Soooo. I told DH to make me stay off this thing..lol!

I got the bathroom sparkling clean, helped my aunt paint trim on windows and doors and scrapped two pages. Didn't get done everything I wanted but it was a start. Tomorrow we tear apart Shawn's room and put up his new bed. So another FULL day of work.

Here are the two pages I got done today. The first one is the ScrapDango kit that was given to the Shanty DT to play with. I got this layout and some pinwheels done but will post them later.

The second layout is the March kit at IAmAScrapholic. It is such beautiful colors. Hope to get some more done tomorrow :)