Monday, February 15, 2010

Valentines Day

simply sucks! I have never been a fan of Valentine's Day. Today was no different. It started off well...I got up to go to the bathroom and I heard my husband run out to the garage to get my gift. I came back to bed to a huge stuffed bear on my pillow and a card. It was very sweet. The morning went well.

Shawn got a call from a girl who was going to bring him a Valentine. He didn't want her to and told her not to but it just snowballed from there. He told her he wouldn't be home and at first we supported him because he felt she was stalkerish. But then she came to the door and we told him to go open the door and say thank you. He wouldn't do it. He was so panicked. Well his dad blew his temper and bad went to worse. From there I ended up talking to Shawn who said he didn't want to hurt this girl because she has admitted to cutting herself so he didn't want to hurt her afraid that she would hurt herself. I can understand that. He doesn't know what to do. His dad...couldn't. So him and I ended up in a huge fight...of course...why not fight on Valentine's Day right. And of course he has to bring up things that happened 30 years ago when I was still a kid (11 years difference in Billy and I). He doesn't know how to let things go and he doesn't know how to adapt to the way things are now. Where as I don't get mad about the kids texting...he does. I don't get mad about the little things...he does. I don't like people walking all over us and we spending money to fix it, etc...he does. IT just became a horrible fight....with me waking up to ugly puffy eyes and another day gone and wasted. I hate fighting. And I really hate the kids hearing it all and assuming it is their fault. Life goes on I guess.

I work out today. Don't feel like going at all. I've still lost nothing. Frustrating. Aggravating. and depressing.

All our snow is gone. The rains came in this morning and melted it all. We were suppose to get more winter weather in the form of sleet/ice and then 2-4 inches but that quickly changed overnight and now it is just flipping rain. Just add on to my saddness why don't you.

So....not feeling like today is going to be much of a good day either. Nor this week. Oh heck how about not even the rest of the month.

Maybe I just need a few good cups of coffee....signing off and finding me some


Emily said...

Becky, so sorry to hear that your Valentine's Day took such a sour turn. Differences of opinion are always a part of marriage but it shouldn't leave you so upset. Hugs!

latte_grande said...

Aaw, honey, February is rough!! It's the shortest month of the year, but by the time it rolls around, we're all sooo ready to see the sunshine again! Keep your chin up...and don't worry about the stupid scale. The numbers don't matter really, since you'll be building muscle. You know my number...I'm here if you need to vent, k? (((((hugs)))))