Hump day

seriously. can I quit. everything.

The "third" car broke down yesterday. So now it is in the shop and lord knows what it will cost to fix it. $45 just for the towing bill already. So back to picking Kayla up and taking her to work, etc.

Got on the scale today. 170 people! 170! What the heck! I have been doing so well...at the lowest I got down to 162 but pretty much maintained around 167. Now I am just pissed. So I will be going back to the gym today or else going and signing up for Weight Watcher meetings again today. I did 60 crunches last night and this morning. And I done 20 push ups last night and 15 this morning. It's not much but it is a start. I just can't gain this weight back. I just can't. I have a cardiologist appointment next week and he will be livid and more than likely if my BP is up then he will give me those damn pills and I don't want them. I have to get this weight off. I have to!!!!!! I mean for Pete's sake I only need to lose 30lbs. Why is it so damn difficult.

On a brighter note...oh my you mean I actually have one these days???...Shawn passed two tests in Math and for the first time ALL YEAR he is passing with a 70. Now of course that can fall by one bad test but hey...it's passing at least for today which sure made him happy. Now if he could just get his teacher to put in his grades in Lit he might be passing in there too. And with just 3 1/2 weeks left.....come on people...work with me and get those grades in so I can stop stressing. Or maybe my outlook should just be in 3 1/2 weeks I will be stress free because one will be out of school and the other...well what will be will be and once it is done I can't stress anymore right.

I will be so glad when my kids have kids so that they can stress like this too. Then I will sit back in my beautiful lake house....sitting on the deck drinking my coffee early in the morning...laughing my arse off! Yep...that is my goal in life right now. Payback.