Friday, May 7, 2010

Bitter Sweet

20 years ago today.....12:36 pm....I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I was a young mom....just 18....newly married...hundreds of miles from home....scared...clueless as to how to be a mom. She was perfect. 6lbs...no hair...cute as can be.

20 years ago today my life changed forever.

Those 20 years have had their ups and downs that is for sure. But I wouldn't of changed it....I would never of wished for it to have been different....

Today my baby girl turned 20.

Today my baby girl broke my heart.

Today that cute little girl...left. She packed her things and left. I have never felt so hurt...so alone...so broken hearted. She left with her birthday cake still in the fridge and her gift on the counter.

I knew this day would come but not like this. I knew it would hurt but not like this.
I don't know what to do....

2 comments:

LollyChops said...

Oh no! I am so sorry Becky! I had ups and downs with my folks too (esp when I was that age). It just took me growing up! Now I cannot stand not to see them at least once per week.

Everything will be ok!

Gentle HUGS!

Just a simple gal said...

oh Becky - my heart hurts for you - I think our goal is always for them to leave the nest but in a more planned and compassiionate way. I am so sorry things are happening this way - Praying that time will heal...