I'm just not sure what to do at this point. Weight wise.
I have been a good girl and steadily going to the gym three times a week. I wish I could fit in 4 but right now I just haven't been able to. I might....might....try tomorrow...we will see how the day goes I guess. I feel so much better when I am out walking on the treadmill...it takes me away for a while...but I just have so much going on at home that my time is needed elsewhere. Although if you stop and think about it...time spent on yourself is the best therapy around. but again...it's making the time.
Anyway....3 months now I have faithfully been working out and this week I started gaining weight again. I just can't get this weight to come off. Now if you go by statistics....1 lb a week...I should be 12 lbs lighter by now and only 6 lbs away from my goal. Well....let me just say that hasn't happened. I am still about 15 lbs away. And it is frustrating. I'm being a good girl. Logging everything I eat. Working out. And nothing. what is wrong with me!!! I called today to see if my dr has a nutritionist on sight but of course they never called me back.
I'm glad today is Wednesday. I am so ready for this week to be over. I am tired and just want to relax this weekend. But not so sure relaxing will be in the schedule. We are going Saturday night (as in Billy and I! Yes a date!) to see Alan Jackson in concert with one of my bestest friends ever! Double date! Can you believe that. It's a miracle. I know we will have a great time. So sunday may just be my day of relaxing but I have several paintings to do and a scrapbook page to finish.
I also will be dropping my artwork off in Paulding for the annual art show. I hope I do well this time. I need the confidence boost and big time. I'm afraid this might be the last art show I try to do if I don't place or anything....just to hard and to many rejections take its toll on you. Kinda like scrapbooking. After so many no's I just don't want to submit anymore. I get to feeling I'm not good enough even though I know my work is okay. I guess it is an inner monster that I need to work on. But that little bugger has followed me all my life when it comes to putting my art out there for the world to see. I am just to critical of myself. One of these days maybe I want be.
We are on the home stretch with school. Shawn only has 2 more months. 2 more months to get all his grades to passing and keep them there. 2 more months and my son will be a Junior in High School. Wow. and just in a month my daughter...my baby girl....will be 20 years old! Geesh....when did I get so old...lol