Kinda sad...

well I am kinda bummed today. Today was the announcement of the Dream Street DT. And nope....my name wasn't on the list. BUT I do know several of the ladies that were and they ROCK totally so I am very happy for them. Well deserved. But still kinda bummed. One of the main reasons being...I had officially told myself in a long conversation (with myself...giggle) that this was my last effort at a manufacturer DT call. I have tried and tried and tried. Seriously. they HAVE to be tired of me trying by now...lol. But I don't know....I am beginning to think that it is just not something that is meant for me and that makes me sad...it was something I really wanted to do. But before I even entered the DT call...I told myself that this was it...do it now or bust. Guess I am going for bust...lol. I've almost considered even passing on submitting anymore to magazines. The last 6 months or so have been hard on me rejection wise. I don't know why that is but it just has been...and has really knocked my confidence down. I wish I could put my finger on it but....I can't. Sometimes I think it is because I take it so literally. I have always done that with my art. If I didn't place in an art show I would wonder "hmmmm was it not good enough"....and I think I bring that to scrapping to...each one is my own personal piece of art and when I send it somewhere and it gets no where...does that mean it wasn't good enough??

A great friend told me today...no matter what...I am a great scrapper to her. That meant the world to me. Because really....I do this for my family. I do pages for my friends. they are who counts and who will benefit from my pages in the long run. I know this....deep down...but it still stings sometimes..ya know.

Anyway...enough pity talk...here is my layout that I did for the second week survivor challenge at TallyScrapper. I liked the idea of using pictures of Kayla from infant to senior. boy has she grown huh!