laying in bed thinking

That...is about all I could do last night. Lay in bed and think. I just couldn't shut my mind off.
What was I thinking about you ask?
This baby....just 3 1/2 weeks until she is here...that is if she stays in her oven that long. I worry...as any mother will....can Kayla do this. Can she raise a child. Can she find a job. can she make it. How will she pay for daycare. How are we going to afford all the new costs that will be coming our way.

crafts. My mind is in craft overload. I can't get everything out of it. I want to be working on this quilt. I want to paint a few pictures. I have a few layouts I want to do. And there just isn't enough time in the day and I am totally exhausted by the time I get home from work. So....I pulled out a book last night and just started jotting down ideas. I guess I will have to keep this thing with me because maybe if I get the ideas OUT of my head...my head can slow down a little.

This weight. I hate it. I am up 8 lbs from my lowest. I can't get it to move. I am TRYING so hard to follow the diet plan and the weight is just not coming off. I hate this. I want to reach my goal. I want to feel good about myself. I want to be pretty. I know I know....that is just how I feel.

Yep my mind is just whirling these days. I hate it when it does that because I get no sleep which just exhausts me even more. Life I guess huh.

I'm late getting ready for work...ugh...I just don't want to go today and the worst part...I have NO IDEA what I am going to eat for breakfast that is Thrive approved Cat I and II! ugh!!!! enough already brain!